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dusty shelves [Mar. 25th, 2009|03:25 pm]
Well I haven't been here for a long time, kinda got over blogging, well not really I'm on <a href="http://thisischemicalburn.blogspot.com/">blogspot</a> now but I'm even on there much, though I tend to live on facebook, oh the shame.

Not much has been happening, in my third year of uni, only one more to go after this. Had a boring holidays just went to Malaysia for a month, came back before Christmas. Unemployed, oh the joy, pretty desperate for a job I even asked my old boss if they had any vacanies. Still doing Japanese at uni, my Japanese itself has barely improved I can read Japanese better than speak it which is not the right way. Nearly failed Japanese last year well the spoken section, I have a lot of trouble catching what they say in the speaking exam cause well Japanese people can speak rather fast. But I'll be done with my Japanese at the end of this year.

Applying for an exchange for next semester and semester one of next year. Hoping to get accepted to Gothenburg University (Sweden) for next semester and then *fingers crossed* Japan for semester 1 of next year which will be excellent way to improve my dismal Japanese skills. Gonna cost a shitload but will be worth it, and I'll be back in Australia inbetween exchanges for Febuary and March.

Nothing else to mention, everything is the same old same old. Oh and I went to Sydney to visit friends and go to 2 shows. I've spent a ridiculous amount of money this year alone on concert tickets but eh I only live once. Time for a nap me thinks


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Now playing: Alkaline Trio - I Was a Prayer
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it's been a long time [May. 31st, 2008|07:43 pm]
[mood | blah]

Man I haven't been on LJ for ages. So what's been happening in my life since my last entry. Spent most of my summer holidays in China/Hong Kong on a holiday/university study. Now in my second year of uni, about to finish my first semester, hurray for winter vacation.

Went to Soundwave, drank too much, went to Brand New and Maylene & The Sons of Disaster show. Worked for Citibank for a bit got fired, now working at the graveyard shift at a 7/11 petrol station. Quit my old job at Ferry Rd before I went to China.

But life has been rather dull just lots of work and uni, no time to go out but I went out last night which was good. Been thinking bout heading down the Melbourne over the holidays. Paying off a new camera which is going nowhere. Made new friend's at uni, hating a silly boy.

I'm planning on visiting Europe/North America in 2009 since my parents want to take a family holiday back to Malaysia these summer holidays. I miss the cold weather of China. China was a rather spectacular trip, the best I've had so far because of all the lovely people I met.

I probably should start my revision for uni exams now before going to work.
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such a paradox [Oct. 6th, 2007|09:44 pm]
What is there to say, well I have nothing to say as I have writers block. I can ramble about my life but I like posting meaningful things. I like reading Craig Owens (Chiodos/Cinematic Sunrise/The Sound of Animals Fighting) blog he writes beautiful things.

Listening to music isn't helping either the lyrics just sit in my head. Someone just smashed a bottle outside of my room.

Boys are something I wish to forget, stop playing with my head. I'm to scared to break down the walls I've created.

I just need some simplicity right now. I need uni to be over and have no work and the weather to be beautiful with the sun out yet a slight cool breeze in the air so I can lay on the grass and just think, breathe and live. I want to write and take photos.
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dressed in make-up & bleached out in the roses [Aug. 17th, 2007|08:43 pm]
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[Current Location |home]
[mood | bitchy]
[music |The Juliana Theory]

Gosh I should update this more often even though no one really reads it but it's good to get my thoughts out there in the open.

Well still stuck at uni week 5 well it will be next week, can't believe how fast this semester is going. I should get a start on my assignments. Work is fucking shit I don't have any days off, I got to uni Tues - Fri then work Sat - Sun so no more late drunken escapades for me. I love my drunken escapades but I guess I'll save money on alcohol. Speaking of alcohol I am giving it up for a month as I feel I'm starting to have a drinking problem and well people that I went to high school with that aren't even 18 can get into fucking clubs which is fucking ridiculous in my opinion. If I let my boobs hang out then I wouldn't bother carrying ID, it's just fucking wrong and makes me so fucking angry. AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH loud mother fucking angry noises. I waited till my birthday and they should fucking wait till theirs so that has somewhat also put me off. Apparently one of them was doing "throw down" please as if that person could do throw down they'd get their ass kicked if they ever went in a real fight circle. I'm not saying I'm brilliant at thrown down, ninja spins and hardcore dancing but at least I fucking know shit about the music and don't think I'm so fucking hardcore cause I underage drink and have a shitty as lip piercing. Ah it just makes me so fucking angry, now I wish I bought that bottle of Southern Comfort when I was out earlier that would of calmed me down.


Males are also on my list of current annoyances. Do I look like some fucking mind reader? Why is it that I have to always make the move why can't they. This freaking guy I go to uni with is freaking driving me crazy. One moment I think he likes me and the next I'm left scratching my head, bah more angry loud noises. I'm just going to stick with boys are stupid and that we should throw rocks at them.


In somewhat more cheerful and less angry news I have tickets to Muse even if my mother had the biggest bitch about me "wasting" my money going to concert. It's like how she wastes so much of her time obsessing about religion hence why I'm not very fond of religion. So in November I get to see Muse and quite surprisingly it has sold out, I thought the Riverstage was rather large. I want more The Juliana Theory + I Am Ghost songs but I am too lazy to download or buy their CDs right now. I just love The Juliana Theory's lyrics; I've been getting into Elliott Smith his lyrics was pure brilliance as well.

Got to catch the bus to work tomorrow, oh hooray looking forward to my 8 hour shift at the hell hole and waking up early to catch public transport and it wouldn't matter whether I had my license cause I don't have a car anyways nor would be able to afford one with my erratic spending habits. I'm so terribly tired now days, it's not from a lack of sleep I get 8 hours plus sleep most days yet I just can't seem to keep my eyes open. Maybe I'm just trying to do too much and overworking myself. I really would like to defer from uni and fix my life but my parents would smack me down.

Taste of Chaos soon, thankfully no more 18th for a little while save me some cash. Planning to get an industrial piercing have to do it soon so it heals properly before Taste of Chaos. Not entirely sure if I still want to go but might as well as I have the tickets just going to runaway when Aiden and The Used play. I also want to get a tattoo soon I have a rough idea of a design just scared that I'll get sick of it.

Wow that was a rather news filled blog off to catch some z's.
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wait for nothing and my body still aches [Jun. 9th, 2007|07:24 pm]
[mood | cold]
[music |Brand New]

My fingers are freezing cold, it hurts to type. I'm going to freeze to death in Melbourne. I just posted a melancholy filled blog on myspace. I may regret it but it's always good to get things out of one's system.

I love listening to Brand New, it makes me think. The lyrics are beautiful and they hold much truth and meaning. Of course most would look at them and go wtf? But you have to read in between the lines. I really should listen to more of their new album The Devil & God Are Raging Inside of Me but I just can't seem to like it, not the way I like Deja Entendu. Though I must admit I really like the songs Jesus Christ and Handcuffs mainly because their songs of self realisation. Everyone needs a moment to realise who they truly are.

I want to be more deep and philosophical, I have the odd deep thought about life and society but I have no one to share these thoughts with. Like the way Brand New lyrics are. Brand New gig tomorrow so that shall brighten my life, I want to go to the secret show but I'm working so I might not be able to make it *sigh*.

2 weeks until holidays start, I wish holidays were now and I didn't have exams. I should head off and study, uni bites.
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save your tears from somebody who believes [Mar. 18th, 2007|09:03 pm]
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[mood | stressed]
[music |Matchbook Romance]

Life life life, what's been happening in my life. I have started uni, been there for about a month now. Different from high school, lectures are boring especially if you have the kind of attention span like I do. Met new people but that was bound to happen. I get to go everyday, fun fun fun for everyone. Work is crap but that's a given, looking for a new job, hope to get one so I can quit my current one. Michelle is leaving for Japan on Wednesday, so she rented an apartment for a few days and we went there to drink. Vodka is not my friend but I still love it. I should be starting to write my essay for Politics but I'm just not in the mood for it even though it is due next week; eek!

I'm really itching to get an SLR camera to do some serious photography but I lack the time/energy to do some serious photography. I can just rent an SLR but time and props are what I'm lacking. Wish I lived in a loft/studio so I could do some shoots. And I'm stating to run low on funds; curse you phone bill and telstra.

Might be going to the Alexisonfire gig if I can a) get tickets & b) find someone to go with me. I have a scar from The Bronx mosh pit from Soundwave Festival. Now I feel like doing some throwdown.

I think I shall go sleep, I feel like a nanny now.
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I pour myself the stiffest drink that my stomach can stand [Feb. 12th, 2007|09:18 pm]
[mood | tired]
[music |Torn - Natalie Imbruglia]

I am so fucking bored; work is absolute shit. I have to work tomorrow *groans* but at least my favourite manager will be on instead of the fucking moody one that told me off for taking a 20 minute break after working 5 hours straight on my day off.

Made my uni timetable, better than my original I go 4 times a week but unlike the old one I don't have a billion classes. Still waiting for one of my classes to reopen so I can enrol in it.

I've been watching this awesome anime called Azu Manga Daioh. It's not one of those killing ones where blood splatters everywhere it's a fluffy funny light hearted one. It makes me laugh a lot which is good because it makes me feel better.

I hate the way my parents talk about my problem, it is not fucking contagious. I can't just make it go away so they can stop telling me that I should just change the way I think; if it was that fucking simple I would fucking do so but it's not even though my therapist told my dad about 50 billion times today it doesn't work like that but he still doesn't fucking get it.

Fuck asian parents and the whole screwed asian culture and it's taboo shit and stupid culture/lifestyle clashs of living in Australia. Screw what my mother says on me not being able to drink; I'm nearly fucking 18 and do as I damn well please.

Great now I feel angry and all worked up, I need a Merlo's fix to feel better. Merlo makes the best damn soy lattes ever. Oh but I got a new phone, it's pretty but the battery is crap but it plays music. I'm going to sleep off the anger now.
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my teenage bullshit has a body count [Jan. 7th, 2007|09:27 pm]
[mood | blah]
[music |Escape the Fate]

Tra-la-la-la-la it's now 2007, yay. The year I turn 18, get my license hopefully and go to uni and meets lots of cool new people. Because I am currently sick of my so called good for nothing friends. I am currently in an angry mood over certain people that are supposed to be my friends but whatever I don't care; in two month I'll be in uni with people that are cool and aren't mindless lemmings. None of them have LJ so I don't care if I read this.

I am seriously over this whole fake niceness crap; high school is over we can stop pretending we all love each other when in reality we all know we want to rip each other spleens out. I pretty much hate everyone that I graduated with or maybe I'm just a heartless bitch.

In other news I haven't been on here for ages, I've been lazy truth be told. I'm over myspace, I rarely post bulletins anymore and spend more time on the myspace message boards than commenting so called friends.

I think I am coming back to posting on LJ, I miss posting regular blogs; myspace bulletins just aren't the same.

I got myself a job, how exciting. Actually my job sucks ass; most boring job ever but hey it gives me money. I love pay day so much.

Soundwaves Festival next month, yay get to see bands and listen to my ear bleeding music as my mother calls it. I really feel like doing some hardcore dancing now; just a bit of throw down, ninja spins, floor punchs and two stepping.

I love how everyone from my school think they're pro at html when they're not. Removing the hyperlinks off a layout you took from a site does not make it your own creation, unlike all of my layouts. And some can't even remove the links properly and use fucking imageshack to host images because they don't know how to resize images using html. Even though they're so "pro" at html they can't edit or make their own contact box or banner. And then some don't order they CSS properly and it screws up my browser (and I use bloody Firefox the best browser) and makes it takes ages to load because they can't read a damn style sheet and close tags properly. I think I should make one of those sites that provides layouts, codes, contact boxes and banners; and show them who is the html overlord of the school, mwuahahaha.

And there is an awesome message board I post on and I think you should join. Also the admin wants some more members so this is my bit in promoting it. Girl and Guy Teens Forum
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a dead letter marked, return to sender [Oct. 16th, 2006|06:03 am]
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[music |Circa Survive]

It was Taste of Chaos last night and I've already said this heaps of times in the past um 12 hours but it fucking went off and that's the truth.

I came home bruised, battered, smelling like sweat and without a shoe. But it was worth it, because the battle wounds show it all or maybe that's just my delirious mind saying so. I had 2 hours sleep last night well this morning really, because my stupid brain woke up at like 4:30ish and I thought it was 5:30ish because the birds were making noise, bout half an hour later I look at my iPod and it says 5:11am. I only went to sleep at around 3am. Then I had to get up at about 6:30 for school. So I've had a bloody glorious day and I'm only being a tad sarcastic.

Me and Tenneal came halfway through Parkway Drive, from my recollection they played Gimme AD, Smoke Em If Ya Got Em, Mutiny and Romance is dead. The singer of Parkway Drive is an awesome throat singer, a lot of throat singer crouch down and scream but he didn't and it was a deep growl.

After Parkway was a local act and then Senses Fail. It went off from then I was stuck between a group of guys that were going crazy and started pushing each other, and kept stepping on the back of my shoe. I couldn't get out or put my shoes on properly. During the pushing and swaying I lost my balance and fell on the floor along with 5 - 10 others sitting on me. One shoe managed to stay on and the other well it flew away and was never to be seen again. So from then on I was moshing with one foot with a shoe and one foot covered with a stocking. I can't really remember what songs they played because my brain got all frazzled and they started sounding the same, but I remember One Eight Seven, Rum Is For Drinking Not for Burning, Bite to Break Skin, Irony of Dying on Your Birthday and I think You're Cute When You Scream. And it was funny when Buddy told the security guards to fuck off.

After Senses Fail was another local act then UnderOATH. Now I'm prefer Dallas Taylor to Spencer Chamberlain so my opinions are slightly biased. I thought UnderOATH were ok, I was originally in the middle of the pit but it started getting crazy and I didn't want to loose my other shoe so I escaped to a slightly quieter place. They played A Boy Brushed in Red Living In Black and White, Writings On the Walls, Reinventing Your Exit, There Could Be Nothing After This; songs that every so called UnderOATH fan knows. I wish they played songs off The Changing of Times, Act of Depression but Spencer can't scream like Dallas so that's why they didn't do them.

Another local act and then Anti-Flag, they were the fucking best in my opinion. It wasn't crazy mosh pit where if you fall you'll get crushed kinda of pit. They really interacted with the crowd and got us going. It was heaps of fun moshing to them and singing along and they got us to start a circle pit. Anti-Flag aren't just great musicians they just seem like fucking great people. They did You've Got to Die For Government, Turncoat, This Is the End (For You My Friend), The Press Corpse and A New Kind of Army, my memory is bad but all I know they fucking owned.

Then intermission found Tenneal as I got lost from her during UnderOATH, went outside for air, tried to look for my shoe found other people who also lost shoes. Then as we came in Thursday were already playing, which I am kinda pissed about because we didn't end up being right in the midst of it all. All I cared is that they played Understanding a Car Crash, I wish they played Paris In Flames and Cross Out the Eyes. Geoff said he doesn't care if we downloaded their music as long as we listened to it, what a fucking legend. I think he needs new jeans he had a massive hole in the crotch area. He got us to do some barrier run thing.

Then it was Saosin which I didn't even realise until I started realising the lyrics and then them saying this is Saosin. They did I Wanna Hear Another Fast Song, Bury Your Head, Seven Years, Voices, Lost Symphonies and others. They seemed to play for ages and Cove Reeber was trying to cool like Geoff and saying we could download their music as well.

And then finally Taking Back Sunday came on. I was immediately crushed between Tenneal and some random behind me. I could barely breathe or move so I moved away to where I could mosh still in the middle of the pit except safely. Adam Larazza sounded like a gay hick the way he talked, he interacted with the crowd but it wasn't like the guys from Anti-Flag. It was cool watching him choke himself with the mike and people tried throwing shit at him and he got kinda angry and was eventually hit, bahahahaha. Anyways Taking Back Sundays set ended up being shorter then scheduled because Saosin went for fucking ages. So they played You're So Last Summer, Spin, Twenty Twenty Surgery, Liar (It Takes One to Know One), MakeDamnSure, A Decade Under the Influence, Cute Without the 'E' (Cut From the Team), Timberwolves of New Jersey, Set Phasers To Stun. It was good but for me Anti-Flag blew them away plus Adam tried getting us to sing, it just sounded strange.

But yes it was a fucking awesome night even though I lost my shoe. But through my missing shoe I made a friend, well I didn't learn his name but he lost his shoe too. I think I'll got Taste of Chaos next year just to mosh even if the lineup is iffy and next time I'll come back with 2 shoes. And on the way back we stopped at the 24 hour Maccas in Springwood, took us 30 minutes to get our food. I have to buy new Chucks but I needed new Chucks soon anyways. Oh and I got a haircut, it's prettyful. So that's the end of my blog on my night at Taste of Chaos.
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let's runaway to land that has rainbows with pots of gold [Sep. 14th, 2006|04:34 pm]
[mood | moody]
[music |Faker - Bodies]

I really want this day to end. I hate today I hate it so much. I hate exams I swear I probably hate everything right now. Oh how melodramatic was that. I've already posted on myspace my anger at school.

I fucked my Maths A exam and for someone that does Maths A & B it's ridiculous. Maths A is the only subject I've been getting A's in and I don't want to fuck it up. I want to be either the top or second in our year for Maths A. It's the only thing I'm good. I should of studied for it properly and not so much time on Maths B or actually revised during class. But I'm sick of studying, I studied all day today and should be right now.

I'm so stressed about school and it's making me fucked in the head even more. I'm so sick of worrying about how my grades will effect my OP. I still haven't applied for uni and I have to pick 2 more courses to fill up my application.

I just want to scream until my throat is sore and I can longer speak. I'm getting angry at everyone, I yelled at someone today before my Maths B exam when they asked how I went in my Maths A exam because I was so pissed that I had fucked that. I feel like having a Neon Genesis Evangelion (cult Japanese anime series), just like when Asuka breaks down and says she'd have rather died then let Rei (another character) save her and that she hates Rei, she hates Shinji (another character) and that she hates everything. And then later she has another of those moments when she "runs away" (she just never goes home) to a friend's house and says she hates everything and that she feels useless and pathetic and then cries herself to sleep.

Oh how I can relate to Asuka, how pathetic is that. I can relate to a made up anime character. It's even more pathetic I can relate to the other character Shinji. But that's what happens when the characters are mentally fucked and are based on the directors own feelings from depression and psychotherapy. There's some psychology theory that each character is based around as well but I forgot what it was called.

Now I feel like watching the series again. If you haven't seen it you should watch it though it does get more "dark" and concentrate more on each characters psychoanalysis.

I should go and study even though I'm sick of studying. My weekend will probably suck because I'll be studying and I might go to Hayley's depending on all the study I have to do. AHHH! I'm going crazy from stress.
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(no subject) [Aug. 11th, 2006|07:35 pm]
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[Current Location |home]
[mood | bitchy]
[music |June - If You Speak Any Faster]

Aloha fellow ljer
Wow that sounded lame, anyways once again it is time for me to rant, as that is what I'm good at. I have come to the conclusion my purpose in life is to rant. This week has been interesting I did my horrible business, yuck and got called a whore a lot. I'm not really a whore, just some of my friends use that word for every insult and they don't really mean it, I think. Actually everyone been mean to me this week but that's what male friends are good at. Like I was lying on a few chairs to sleep and sat up for a bit and went to lie back down and Jackson had pulled my head chair away and I nerly fell off the chair and could of broken my neck. 

But the rant, the rant is about *drum roll* Girlfriend magazine. I admit I've read it because the school library has them and well I was bored during my spares. I was completely outraged with them trying to be hardcore and seem like they know crap about rock music. The ruined absolutepunk.net; I used to go there for music news before I found my new site and while reading Girlfriend I found they wrote something on it and it make me want to projectile vomit on Girlfriend. You can read what they said about absolutepunk.net in the scan below.

























And then I read their interview thingo with The Veronicas. Yes I don't like The Veronicas, I can't stand their whole we're rock even though their crap pop. Apparently one can emo scream, big whop give me hardcore scream and I might give a crap. But yeah they said how much they loved AFI and how their new album sounds more urban. Urban, what the fuck; maybe a touch pop riff style but urban they should get their ears checked. And they were talking about how cool Chuk Taylors were, wow doesn't every kid that wears them know that already and doesn't need some pop act to tell us.

But moving on from The Veronicas I read something else in the horrible magazine that made me want to go to where the magazine is made, and set the place on fire but before that find the editors and such and stab their eyeballs with toothpicks and possible rip out their spleens. They reached their music/movie review section and saw they had done a review on Taking Back Sunday. A band I've liked since yr 10 and appreciated Nolan's awesome writing skills. Larazza can't write like Nolan, look at the new album the songs don't have the same meaning the choruses are the song titles, Nolan had off hand song titles. But about what Girlfriend wrote they said nothing about the music and said to listen to them because they had cute fringes and such. I mean what the hell. We should be talking about the music and what part makes it a good song not what they look like. AHHHHHHH image all the fucking teenyboppers at TOC in the mosh pit screaming in my ear how they want to have Larazzas babies. They also wrote something about Death Cab, bah way to ruin Death Cab even more than The OC did. Below in the picture you can read what they wrote


I really want to stab Girlfriend and hurt them. Why can't they go back to reviewing top 40 like they used to and leave the rock to real music magazines that don't just talk about the way a band looks. That's why Chik mag rocked they actually knew shit about the music and because of stupid competitions they turned a bit more mainstreamed and had younger readers and now the magazine is gone. Stupid fucking crap teenage magazines trying to come off all hardcore and knwoing crap. Now I feel more angry then before, I shall think about happy things like world domination.

Adios you filthy monkeys and thanks for the tacos (line from Scott Dooley)

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faking it is the only way [Jul. 26th, 2006|09:53 pm]
[music |Bleed Like Me - Garbage]

I've been slack and haven't posted on here for a bit. Nothing interesting has been happening just school and life in general.

Actually I've been thinking abour group/social dynamics. The group I sit with has changed once again, well same place just some people are no longer there. It's funny how people when given the chance will jump ship and sit with people who are more popular or socially accepted. Or sit with girls who give them fan service or as I say their own groupies. I really can't stand people in generally anymore, they just piss the hell out of me with their fakeness. Which is why I called this blog what it is; everyone in life fakes and faking it keeps the peace except for those that see past the act and wish everyone would be the bitch they are.

Anyways last Friday night I went to a party and got drunk. Before the party I went to the wrong complex got stuck in the complex and had to jump over a 2m wall. Lots of random people there, people from school that weren't invited tried to get in but didn't. The manager of the complex kicked up out including the host as no one was supposed to be home. Then me, Brooke and Alicia walked to Harbours where I got picked up. Got a cut on my foot from my shoes, saw people from the party at Maccas, went home and slept. The others walked to someone elses house.

Can't be fucked to add anything  else, Taste of Chaos in a few months and I am so going to con my parents to letting me go to Big Day Out.
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the twlight world in blue and white [Jul. 1st, 2006|09:32 pm]
[mood | quixotic]
[music |Thursday]

Ignore the mood I put, I just thought the word looked cool.

Anyways I'm here to rant I guess, this should be called Ranting 101. The reason for this rant, just stupid fuck wits on the net. Well people know Bebo which I joined as I used to join any site that someone invited me to, now I can't be bothered to have a billion things to check. Anyhoo there is some complete fuck wit with the IQ of I don't know a pigeon. This person felt so proud to leave nasty comments for me on it. Wow how empowered would you feel to post mean things about someone you don't know. Not the first time people have tried to blast me, most likely because I'm too opinionated for my own good and don't give a fuck about the repercussions.

So what did this guy (yes its a male for a change)who thinks he's gods gift to women say. Well apparently and this is just copy and pasted from it
ur seriously a fuckin idiot ur attitude is so fucking queer you're such a fucking weirdo
and
*gasp* you're a fuckin idiot. fuckin loser bitch

He can't spell fucking, all you have to do is press the 'g' key after the 'n' one and learn how to spell your. No wonder his insult is so intelligent and enlightening; as now I know that I'm a queer, weirdo, idiot and a loser bitch. Well I already acknowledge that I am indeed weird, a bitch at times yes, and my attitude isn't 'normal'. But thanks for pointing out that I'm an idiot and not just a bitch but a loser bitch. Man that guy must feel so proud, I mean I would if I could string together such intelligent thoughts.

If you would like to see how intelligent he is you can see at The "Intelligent" One's Bebo

But seriously why do people even bother leaving comments like that. Oh that's right it's supposed to crush me, oh boo-hoo I am so sad some idiot on the Internet doesn't like me. My life is like so over. I laugh at these people; are they so desperate to make themselves feel better by saying I'm . Boy I wish I was that cool. These people are just as bad as those that have fights via the Internet; you don't fucking know them and it's pathetic. Wait people like "Smarty Pants" start the fights, ok new theory. Every fuckwit on the net who tries to put down people most likely get rooted up the ass by a red hot poker and have the vocubulary capacity of a 6 year old child. Yeah that theory sounds great.

Anyways I bought my Taste of Chaos tickets yesterday morning at 9am. I haven't been up that early since holidays started. Bromley, Tenneal and Chris were there too. The front mosh pit tickets sold out in 30 minutes but I got front pit tickets and so did they. Actually Bromley bought presale tickets that I told him about and Chris was pissed that Bromley didn't buy him tickets too. I went to the City yesterday, I got a new band tee and this cool skirt from Valley Girl; I roll over the top as my legs are ever so short. The skirt has polka dots and this sash of material like a belt which I fold over to make a belt.

I am off to go do stuff, was going to leave "Smarty Pants" a comment but that'd be stooping to his level. And Dashboard Confessional's new album Dusk & Summer isn't as good as I'd thought it'd be considering everything I read about it. A Mark, A Mission, A Brand and A Scar was so much better, Chris Carrabba please go back to acoustic guitar or add some to the next album, I'm begging.
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no more exams as I consumed them [Jun. 22nd, 2006|01:42 pm]
[mood | cold]
[music |Decemberunderground - A.F.I]

That's right people no more exams for this term. Had my last exam yesterday which was good, except for the cramped hand I got from writing for 2hr. I'm so glad that it is the holidays, even though I'll spend heaps doing nothing. The weather is crap, I like the rain and all but you can't spend everyday outside in the rain freezing can you.

Oh Taste of Chaos is coming again and this time I'm actually going, this years lineup is so much better than last years; but you won't like it if you don't like screaming. So these holidays I'm planning to go to Brisbane a few times to a) buy tickets and b) just be a public nuisance. So by the end of the holidays I will have no money; as I have to buy TOC tickets and AAR tickets for me and friends. But I'll have money again when they pay me back. What else, I was checking iTunes and had a good laugh. They put UnderOATH as pop, bahahahahahahahaha. Next thing they'll put Paris Hilton as hardcore.

Actually some of the things commercial things say about alternative music makes me laugh. Like when Decemberunderground was released and the Gold Coast Bulletin did a review of it and the reviewer said that My Chemical Romance do a better 'goth rock' than A.F.I; now that made my day. My Chemical Romace do not do goth rock and A.F.I have been doing the goth rock sound longer than MCR have been everyone's favourite band. The Cure and Joy Division started the goth rock and if you say MCAR sound like that you deserved to be smacked across the head.

Oh and Supre are releasing a CD, which is even funnier. It's all shitty techno shit that no one has heard of, and it at the cheap price of $30. It's sadder that people will waste money on it just because it's Supre and Supre is like so awesome. So here's the shit they call music aka track listing.
1 FLAUNT IT (RADIO EDIT)
2 FREEK U (FULL INTENTION MIX)
3 AVALON (THIN WHITE DUKE MIX)
4 TRICK ME
5 SEVEN DAYS IN SUNNY JUNE (STEVE MAC CLASSIC MIX)
6 NO MORE CONVERSATIONS
7 YOU GOT THE LOVE
8 RIGHT ABOUT NOW (FUZZY HAIR VOCAL MIX)
9 HARD TO BEAT
10 I GOT
11 SAY HELLO (ANGELLO & INGROSSO REMIX)
12 PON DE REPLAY
13 BLUE WATER (RADIO EDIT)
14 I WANT YOU (RADIO MIX)
15 LA LA (SHARP BOYS VOCAL REMIX)
16 SOMETHING (TO MAKE YOU FEEL ALRIGHT)
17 ANDY J
18 MIRACLE (RADIO EDIT)
19 FROM PARIS TO BERLIN
20 PUMP UP THE JAM 2005
21 THE WEEKEND


So I am planning to burn every CD and the odd Supre store. I already have 5 or so people joining me and would gladly accept more people to join me on my mission to burn Supre and rid the world of crapness and primary school children thinking their Supre skull shirts are so hardcore
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rant pt. 1 [Jun. 14th, 2006|06:43 pm]
[mood | energetic]
[music |Our Revolution - Halifax]

I am ranting again as apart of my procrastination. I like ranting if you haven't figured yet, things easily stir me up. So what is my rant, well a lot of things my first is teen/teenybopper magazines plus shit music magazines ie Smash Hits and such.

I was at the newsagent earlier today seeing if they had the new Chik mag, they do but it had the weird Milo Kiwi lipgloss. But enough about Chik, I saw some shitty teenybopper magazine and picked it up to read the cover and laughed at it. One of the articles was Shock, Zac Efron was a nerd. Yeah and half hollywood claim they are/were neards too; gasp shock horror I would never have imagined. Those magazines make me laugh, I know I read a teen mag Chik but at least its half decent and doesn't have shirt articles like in certain magazines that shall not be named example:
+ How to waste a $100 on a 5cm piece of material that really should be a belt
+ How to shop at Supre and look like a hardcore punk/emo/what ever other stereotype is trendy
+ How to have sex with 5 guys in one night and not look like a slut
+ 5 steps in becoming the next Paris Hilton who is like such an awesome idol
+ how to have multiple orgasms in one night (I read this on the cover of this months Cosmo)


Ok now shitty music magazines, I flicked through a Smash Hits as the cover said and I quote: Lee Harding the prince of punk. If Lee Harding is the prince of punk then fuck I must be the queen of hardcore. But seriously how the fuck is he punk, come on people as if he really embodies the whole ideal that punk WAS! Just because he wears sweat bands, has hair that is every colour of the rainbow and a billion facial peircing does not make him fucking punk you stupid dumb shits that say he is.
They had a little thing about if you really do like rock and had a little blurb thing about it. This is a direct quote of it:

You went to the American Idiot concert, you forked out major moola for TOC, you own Still Not Gettin' Any and you've sun along with 'Lifestyles of the Rich and Famous', so you think you like rock, huh? Well there is a whole unexplored world of less mainstream rock, punk and metal out there just waiting for you to investigate, here's your a-z guide... and this is just the beginning.

The bands they listed were APC (A Perfect Circle), Bowling for Soup, Cradle of Filth, Deftones, Earshot, FOB, Grinspoon, Hawthorne Heights, Incubus, J.E.W(Jimmy...), Korn, LTJ (Less...), Mudvayne, Nirvana, Orgy, POD, QOTSA, Rise Against, Slipknot, Three Days Grace, Unwritten Law, Velvet Underground, Weezer, Yellowcard and Zebrahead (I missed some but meh). And for each band they wrote bands similar to the ones metioned and most were absolute bullshit eg for FOB they said bands similar to them were Dashboard Confessional, Pennywise and NOFX. How the fuck if FOB sound like NOFX. And for FFAF they said The Used, Hoobastank and Simple Plan. FFAF is metalcore in a sense and not shitty pop rock with wussy screams. And Weezer they said Vercua Salt, Ben Folds Five and Kiss were similar. Does Smash Hits even know who Veruca Salt are or understand their music.

Some of the bands are undergroundish I guess but that entire article was trash, yeah Yellowcard sounds like FFAF and Rise Against sounds like Rufio.

I'm sorry if I offended anyone but really when magazines try to act like they know shit about music especially rock they do a half ass job and create more fxc children who think they're so hxc because they like bands everyone knows.

This rant shall be continued another time possibly tomorrow along with other things I want to rant about. Future rant material Crazy Frog destroying a Queen song, Paris Hiltons new 'music' and parents who blame the internet and myspace
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leave your heart on the bedside [Jun. 7th, 2006|08:14 pm]
[Tags|]
[Current Location |over the rainbow]
[mood | stressed]
[music |Rock Kills Kid]

Ahoy hoy, I finally finished my fucking maths b assignment, fuck yeah people. I hate maths b, it's too fucking hard and I really don't care about calculus or integrals or any other crap to do with maths. Well enough about the f word. I should be writing my jap speech which I have to have memorised by tomorrow but meh I'll wing it as usual. Ah school is killing me, I have 9 exams in block next week. All my damn subjects have an exam, curse doing an OP.

Hmm I saw X-Men 3 on the weekend, I found it funny. People exploded *tee hee hee*. I was being an idiot this morning during break I was a running around being a plane, skipping, singing about oompa loompas, the wizard of oz, having my knee crack from skipping and scaring people. Twas fun, I like to scare people. I think eating butter menthols is bad for my mental health and too much chocolate make one too hyper.

EK! there's a clown on TV. I'm not very fond of clowns, when I was little I had a phobia of clowns. I was afraid of many things, now I'm just paranoid and conspiracise with people. My iPod has been fixed well it was replaced but I haven't picked it up yet. I think I did well without my iPod for 2 weeks. Quiet an achievement for me since my iPod is permantly attached to me apparently. I don't have much of a life, I've spent most of the weekends this term at home sleeping; at least I'm not sleep deprived. The next few weeks shall be cram sessions galore, only 2 weeks till vacation. Then me, Rhiannon and Rebecca are planning to annoy Brisbane and go formal shopping, buy CD's from Rocking Horse and I shall buy clothes and band merch.

Actually my school blocked the Rocking Horse website but there is still Skinny's so its all good. A7X are coming in August and tickets go on sale tomorrow, not much into them may or maynot go; but AAR are coming and I really want to go to that. Got nothing else to say and should start on my japanese

Au reviour you poop throwing monkeys
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I need some sleep [May. 8th, 2006|09:03 pm]
[Tags|]
[mood | tired]
[music |Fall Out Boy (Take This to Your Grave)]

I really need some sleep right now. I survived off roughly 12 hours sleep on the weekend and had to wake up at 6 this morning for school. And I've been awake since, I was going to have a nap but then my sleeping patterned be screwed and my sleeping pattern is weird already. Most night in the middle of the night I wake up and can't get back to sleep for an hour.

Anyways I have become a major stress head once again. School is taking it's toll, I still spend copious amounts of time on the Internet but never do my homework because of that. Actually I should check if I have Jap homework and start my Maths A assignment. I was badly stressed last week because of the QCS 2 day practice; and its bad because I'm not even allowed to talk to myself. Got my english pairs presentation on Wednesday, FUCK!. But what's fucked up is the fact that all the other classes either have theirs due Friday or next week or later. And they had an extra week to the story that goes with the oral than the original due date and they all started before my class which has had the least amount of time. I guess that's what you get with having the HOD of English as your year 12 teacher but at least my marks are so much better than last year. But enough about school.

I was appalled when I went into City Beach (surf/skate clothing store) and there before me was a Iron Maiden shirt on a mannequin. I was disgusted, near the mannequin was a Ramones & Lep Zeppelin shirt. I really wanted to burn the place down. It's bad enough there are millions (major exaggeration) of little children wearing Ramones or other well known bands shirts they buy from music stores but a chain store selling them it makes me SICK. Boneham must be rolling in his grave. Now everyone going to be 'Oh I'm so cool I have an Iron Maiden shirt'; yeah but do you know what happened at Ozzfest last year and which of the original Ramones is still alive or what date was Boneham found dead. ANd probably all wouldn't know. Like in last months Chik magazine in Dooley's little section. His girlfriend will only sell you a Ramones shirt if you can answer three question which is a good idea. Today I told Jackson and Chris about it, we had a chat/rant over it and saw the scene child of yr 11 and the Benowa Emo Kid (he's not really emo, he's a hxc kid from Southport) and the Jackson told me the little scene child was talking to him and saying how she was going to buy a Ramones ring tone called Blitzkrieg something. What so called fan of rock music doesn't know Blitzkrieg Bop, most of the Ramones shirts you see around the play have the lines Hey Ho Let's Go but they probably think that's what the song is called.

Sorry for the extremely anger of this entry but with the little sleep I am surviving on, I had turned to using my pent up anger as an energy resource.

Anyways on a happy note Bromley found his Getaway Plan CD, so I can finally hear the entire thing. I was going to buy it on Sunday when I was in Rocking Horse but didn't in the end. And the reason for this lack of sleep is because I spent Saturday and Sunday in Brisbane because their was some Buddha's festival my mum made me go to and help out. There was some Japanese band playing there too and heaps of Japanese people up there. Er have nothing else to say, since I missed most of Supernatural and need to watch the rest. So buh bye people
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I'm sick of writing the songs that make you think that your so special [Apr. 27th, 2006|03:00 pm]
[mood | disappointed]
[music |Taking Back Sunday - Louder Now]

It is nearly the end of week 2 term 2, another 8 more weeks and it will be winter vacation and past the halfway mark for year 12. I swear it feels like I only just started high school and then with a snap of my fingers here I am in year 12. It doesn't feel like I've spent the last 12 years of my life at school and 'learning'. Soon it will be all over and I will have to defend myself in the big bad world. I am actually sad about leaving, everyone is like oh yeah school is nearly over. But for me school has been my safety blanket, I know people there and people know me. I have teachers telling me what to do and what I shouldn't be doing.

Anyways enough thinking about school. I have got the new TBS album Louder Now. It's a good effort for a first time major label production. It is obvious how much the label has affected the sound and decisions made about song choice and sound in my opinion. It is still good but it doesn't even come near Where You Want To Be which wasn't as good as Tell All Your Friends (both with Victory and TAYF had Nolan). Oh course all the new 'fans' will 'love' it because they all jumped on the band wagon ever since they became major label band. Old fans will understand the difference in sound and lyrical structure. Of course you can't always stay on an Indie label, because we all know when one starts a band they hope to become famous and well known one day and this is one the of the things that happen. There are some good songs but it is a mediocre effort when put against the previous 2 albums. This is similar to the Plans album which was Death Cab's first major label album. In that album you could tell there was a lot of studio fine tuning done to tracks because it was all too smooth. Just like all pop singers *cough lindsay lohan/ashlee simpson/hilary duff cough* who sound spectacular on CD but average to below average live. Eg Ashlee Simpson basically just shouts in live shows.

I am sick of all the little 'hardcore/emocore/punk/alternative' teens raving about bands that me and other have liked for years and who only jumped on the bandwagon after every Tom, Dick and Harry hear about them. Oh and how 'hawt' the lead singer or any other band member is. I do not give a fuck about how hot someone in a band is. If your on my MSN list then you've already read my little rant about these people. And they all seem to be illiterate and have weird defective looking font that makes the letters look backwards and you burst a blood vessel trying to decipher the junk. I mean what's so cool about looking like you failed 4th grade English and having writing that could cause someone to die from brain overload.

Over it, anyways I am disappointed with the new TBS album in a sense. But we all know the good times of having a band to loyal fans can only last so long. I guess it's back to myspace & purevolume to find new bands to make up for the every growing list of bands that all those 'i'm so alternative because I wear black skinny jeans' children have 'fallen in love' with.

Oh and I bought Ok Computer last weekend, ah the pleasures of Radiohead. And there are so many good gigs I want to go to, but either no one wants to go with me or they're broke. I would say get a job but they already do.
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44. Caliver Love Letter Straight From My Heart [Apr. 16th, 2006|07:06 pm]
[mood | full]
[music |Fightstar]

It has been Easter holidays for a week now. Haven't accomplished much as usual; curse my excessive laziness. It was my birthday on Wednesday, I am now halfway to 34; I feel so old. Sadly school starts again on Wednesday but I only start Thursday because I have some Uni open day on the first day, and this scored my class an extention for English which I haven't properly started.

What else; my computer died last night. Stupid power search burn out my motor, but it got fixed today so now I can add more music to my iPod. I now have 1547 songs + podcasts on my beloved iPod. I think I would die without it, or just go incredibly insane and turn into a serial killer possibly.

I saw Ice Age 2 on Saturday, I love kids movies. Ah the simple ways a simple mind is amused. There's a movie marathon on tonight because it is Easter but I'm too lazy to go; but I'm going to watch She's the Man tomorrow since it's Larnise's birthday tomorrow. I hope people had a good easter, I did and I think I ate a bit too much chocolate. Thank goodness for cross-country to sweat it all out.

Anyways I have nothing else to muse about so here is a little survey-esk thing I 'borrowed' from candyrockstar. green are my answers, blue are ones I haven't answered

"ANYBODY UNDER THE AGE OF 13 SHOULD NOT RE-POST THIS. JUST CAUSE YOU WERE BORN IN '93' OR '94' DOES NOT MEAN YOU ARE A 90s KID

IT'S NOT LIKE YOU COULD REMEMBER SOME OF THE ORIGINAL SIMPSONS.

YOU KNOW YOU'RE A AUSSIE 90s KID IF...


YOU'VE WORN LEGGINGS AND FELT COOL

YOU HAD A HUGE FRINGE AT SOME POINT IN YOUR CHILDHOOD

YOU REMEMBER READING AND WATCHING "GOOSEBUMPS"

YOU TOOK PLASTIC CARTOON LUNCH BOXES TO SCHOOL

YOU REMEMBER THE CRAZE OF YO-YOS AND TAMAGOTCHI'S

YOU STILL GET THE URGE TO SAY "NOT" AFTER EVERY SENTENCE.
NOT.


YOU COLLECTED POKEMON CARDS Still have mine

YOU WATCHED THE ORIGINAL POSTMAN PAT, FIREMAN SAM AND NINJA TURTLES

YOU REMEMBER WHEN THE NEW BEANIE BABIES WERE ALWAYS SOLD OUT

YOU USED TO WEAR THOSE STICK ON EARRINGS, NOT ONLY ON YOUR EARS BUT AT THE CORNERS OF YOUR EYES

YOU KNOW THE MACERENA BY HEART

"TALK TO THE HAND" ENOUGH SAID

YOU REMEMBER BUM BAGS

YOU COLLECTED TAZOS I still own mine

2 WORDS, SPICE GIRLS

BLINKY BILL WAS COOL

CAPTAIN PLANET HES OUR HERO


USED TO PLAY HAND CLAPPING GAMES

RE-POST THIS IF YOU ARE A AUSSIE 90s KID AND CAN RELATE TO ANY OF THESE!

The 90's were some of the best times of my life, no mood swings, no bitchiness, no people obsessing over popularity, hair products etc. If only I could turnback time (remember it was an Aqua song).

I shall now go and procrastinate else where and leave with an 'emo'-esk thought
You break my heart into a thousand pieces and you say it's because I deserve better?
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(no subject) [Apr. 1st, 2006|06:40 pm]
[Current Location |in front of a computer]
[mood | jubilant]
[music |Brand New]

It's a Saturday night I am bored and sitting at home. I think there's some rave/make out/drunk thing going on at a football ground near my house. Little stupid considering the ground is near a major road and Harbour Town is across the intersection. Oh well their own fault if they get caught for underage drinking. Drinking is pretty much a given for most high schoolers but at a big public place is just asking for trouble and then there are those that are obsessed with getting absolutely sloshed every weekend. It'll be funny in 10 years time I'll be relatively healthy with no liver problem and they'll be in hospital with sclerosis of the liver from many years of binge drinking. Mwuahahaha to them all, may their livers rot from their stupidity. Don't get me wrong I drink, but I don't spend my entire week trying to find parties or places to get smashed and drink as much as I can before I vomit. Probably because they started later than me and I've out grown the whole obsessiveness of it.

In other news my dad said I am not allowed the jumping castle, apparently I am too old. Pf ft who ever came up with that. So I am probably getting some friends and going out to dinner, not as exciting as fairy bread but that's life. If I get a job next year or even this I'll get that jumping castle for my 18th, well if I can find a company that will let 17 & 18's on them.

Only one more week of school before Easter Holidays. This term has been really long and so many exams and assignments. I fucked up my maths A which I am pissed off about considering maths A is the easiest thing I can do. And it's not fair Michelle got to redo her first part of the exam because she didn't study and wrote nothing on the test paper. Well fuck her it's her own fault for not studying and listening in class and for not even trying first time around. The weekend before the exam she did jack shit, when she could have studied and completely unfair to the rest of us. She used the night before she redid the exam to learn everything that was on the exam. So I am going to ask my teacher if I could finish the 2 questions I didn't finish.

Other than that yr 12 isn't too bad, getting pretty decent grades from what I've been tested in. Probably going to fail maths B still can't remember how to do half the shit. Been wasting my medical tape and wrapping my fingers up so they don't peel. Need to get new headphones as my iPod ones play up. Third pair from Apple but sadly my warranty ran out at the beginning of March. Was thinking about getting these imitation iPod ones but I don't know if they'd last long and if it can reach as high as sound as the original. I can't find a place that sells Phillip's ones. I got some from Sony but it had the annoying neck chain and I don't like the shape of the none iPod headphones and the black against the white looks weird and their cords are so long.

Wow this was a long bore and waste of time. Go check out The Legion of Doom, read The Rules of Attraction, stop snorting coke. And lastly I got my new ID card, happy with the picture better than the last 3 years and isn't the little mood emotion cool
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